The space in between

Hello friends! I am writing my first post as a 27-year old. It feels a little odd being 27. It sounds older to me, but I don't feel older in any way. With birthdays often comes a little bit of reflection... I often think about what was, and what I hope will be. Lately, I have been feeling a little caught in between past and future. I feel myself thinking about all my friends, my best friends that I had when I was younger. I grew up with tons of guy friends, had a serious boyfriend in high school, and I have always remained pretty close with all of them, until the years have passed on. With relationships, and everything else, we have all slowly drifted and I am reminded that we are getting older. Things change even though on a day to day basis it feels like nothing changes. I have a habit of looking back. Wondering about things. Did I make the right decisions? But, when it comes down to it, we can't worry about those things. We make the decisions that are right at the time. Sometimes I wonder how I got here and then looking back I know exactly how I got here with every conscious decision that was made. I have always been one to go with my gut, to follow my heart as much as I can. I guess when it comes down to it that's all we can really do in life... follow our hearts and not really worry about the rest. I posted on Maitri's facebook page, that we will get there, when we are supposed to get there, not a moment sooner. The key is having patience with all things. Not comparing our journeys to others'. If I closed my eyes and couldn't compare my life to someone else's, I would say that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. It is only when I get wrapped up, in what I think life should look like or be, or what other people are doing, that I lose sight of the gift... that is now. Learning, growing, finding my way and not being afraid to let go.

The thing is things change. That is a constant. Our life is a moving, shifting, changing every day type of thing. It isn't stagnant. Sometimes we want to hold on for comfort, but we can't be afraid to let go and let our lives take us where it may. 

I love this Hopi Elders Prayer:

"There is a river flowing now very fast. It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid. They will try to hold on to the shore. They will feel they are being torn apart and they will suffer greatly.

Know the river has its destination. The elders say we must let go of the shore, push off into the middle of the river, keep our eyes open, and our heads above the water. See who is in there with you and celebrate."

I wish you all a wonderful day! Don't be afraid to lose sight of the shore. :)

I love Sundays.

Hello again! Yes, time has passed, almost a month! I can't believe I'm sitting here and it's March. Spring forward, flowers, transitions, new seasons... are all upon us. I hope you guys have all been well. My life has been pretty good. I went to a bachelorette party last weekend, which was a much needed little break. Finding balance between the yoga teacher self and the 26 (almost 27) year-old self can sometimes be a little challenging. On the weekends I find myself tired and needing sleep, while at the same time wanting to go out and see friends. I have more people come up to me that know me as the yoga teacher now, than people that know me simply as Sarah. I guess I feel that is both good and bad. Mainly good, hopefully. It's interesting to be in this place. This place between wanting to give myself completely to my career and also a place of wanting to have it all (which sometimes I wonder if it's an illusion). I think a lot of us girls now a days don't want to choose between one or the other. I know I don't. No one ever really tells you that your 20's are hard. It's a process of finding your place, your voice, starting to let go of what others want from you and doing things that work for you. I think that for awhile, I was focused on approval. Now I'm saying screw approval I can't take that on. All I want is for my life to feel good... A life that fits for me. I think that's what we all want to find... a life that feels good.

I started another blog, one for the yoga studio (Maitri Yoga), and although I thought about letting this one go, I've decided to keep it going... for the 26, almost 27 year old self, that would like it as a place to still bring my own thoughts, worries... a place where I can simply be Sarah. :)

Wishing you all a wonderful Sunday.

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